2001

Once upon a time I kept a journal of brief mindblurbs. Random brain noise bits I tried to wipe out onto the keyboard at least once a day. Usually they were one sentence long, but if I felt particularly feisty, I’d blort out as much as I could muster.

This is a page of old mindblurbs, and no longer gets updated.
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12.28.01
fuckstick motherfuck assfuck fuckbrain fucknut
fuckcrusade
a tyrany of fuck
ava-fucking-lanche
fuck-a-licious

12.27.01
going inside circles

12.26.01
opening sores with used staples
eating emotional appetizers by the mouthful

12.24.01
white cheer, gold reflected shmmering snowmirror

12.21.01
shimmering insanity—instant-breakfast-brain

12.18.01
infatuous simplicity itself
cookie smothering

12.14.01
suprise inspirations

12.13.01
steamy squares of sublimity

12.12.01
numerology cartography

12.09.01
bloody rot and smothered spots

12.5.01
dream journal dread
leading a fish to water

12.4.01
bloody boobie traps, and blister fixtures
eyeball blisters
bloodtear freezer-sheer

12.3.01
baby feelers

11.29.01
quit split flit slip
outsourcing the processing

11.27.01
slithering off your slime chair

11.26.01
fear a friendly feeling

11.20.01
surrounded by hype
techno-insatiable
monitorlust—life in screenes

11.14.01
swishing tailfeathers in Tulsa

11.13.01
walking skylark on dream-cushions

11.12.01
strike stifling
satisfy your inner burrito

11.8.01
saywhen evening grows
nightslide—seeming helpless

11.6.01
withered and wilted wastings of day
dream surface

11.5.01
quilt witling

10.30.01
scratch and snub
numb cyst-scratching giving mutated fingers wry wringing

10.28.01
building bridges out of belts and sandlewood

10.26.01
slackrope running

10.24.01
days of your sold out momma, giving gripe to gruff… buying cars… living deserted…

10.23.01
going dot picking, dot mixing,
fields of fresh dots and insane lines
googoo gaga over infultrated line-drawings

10.18.01
blueberry blort pie
big on bubblegum bitching

10.17.01
fucked by the seat of your pants
pulling rank in fucksville

10.16.01
revisit requisitions of invent

10.14.01
oggling oodles and noodles
eating frog slog viddles

10.13.01
fringe felatio in fatalistic spurts

10.12.01
fire trails and frequent thrills

10.10.01
a day in damsel strings and tassels

10.5.01
sugar-coated ice-capped molars

10.3.01
plumes of opressing orchard apple eyeballs

10.1.01
symetry in numbers
anexiety in numbers
murder in numbers

dentistry in numbers?
numbers in destiny
destiny’s numbers
numbers destined for greatness
great numbers of fire
numb-ers

9.28.01
shaving pussies at the playground
pre-pink pitfalls
going pinkdiving
pleading the pink

9.26.01
caged and gnawing at my brain

9.25.01
gear grindingly gorgeous
got my sumps in a pump

9.22.01
rain falls on inncents

9.12.01
apocalypse cow

9.10.01
swimming in the sweetspot

9.7.01
hummingbird strumpet
razor-nipple making shirt-stands
square glasses and white-girl afro

9.6.01
salamander slime smile

9.5.01
fishing for word weeds
murky sentence sludge
growing alliteration algae

9.4.01
a day as exciting as entropy

8.31.01
astroturf padded asylumn
outside is warm like melted snickers

8.30.01
thrill-seeking swapmeet style craziness
alice-colored looking glass

8.29.01
words of hurt, owe opera appologies

8.28.01
miles of skyhigh thimble collections..

8.23.01
headscrew seeing-eye-sloth

8.22.01
blazing at sunset
on an eventless horizon
our star stutters light through atmosphere
creating pleasant hues
and a dreamscape for lovers
entwined on a hill or rooftop
watching like vultures who watch a dying animal
hungry for the night to come…

8.21.01
delinquent daydreams

8.20.01
insect sized holes in the universe

8.16.01
somtimesweary is another word for alive and alive is another way of saying insane.
life is too intense for most people

8.15.01
taste-driven test-drive

8.14.01
serpentine insinuations

snake like salivations

8.13.01
gooseberry pie-flesh
yum

8.10.01
frighteningly fammilliar

8.9.01
decisions are made by giant elected egos
—-

I’m groovy on a gospel of anal-juice,
smothered in a numbing intensity.
My thoughts are of the universe of sex,
a rolling wound, a giant wheel,
a gyroscope of universal proportions,
and I’m perched on it, sitting,
one knee underneath me,
shoe up on the couch,
sitting and spinning,
the world is my sphincter, I shall not want.

Sun shines on my musk
a spiritual journey through the bowels,
riding upriver on a sometimes narrow
ship of fools.
Penetration, the face of aphrodisiac attack,
split pea splinter-skin,
a wooden wand of splinterless lust.
Who offers you what?

I’m thinking about it, sure.

8.8.01
state of absolute, in a universe without constants

8.6.01
treesap sticky afternoon haze
sky as dense as avacado
honey maple sweat

8.3.01
home is where the art is.

8.1.01
sliding doorway dreaming

7.31.01
dip-drain
straining the universe through a black hole collander

7.30.01
instant swindle

7.23.01
hot on silver—stars eyeball other stars
like mercury melting over another metal

7.20.01
blacklist bubble-beer binary
blundering through blueberry forests

7.18.01
waiting for imposible moments

7.17.01
import export instant extort
swing slide on slippery slope
salvation in an instant

7.13.01
hacksaw killer
combat ready toiletbowl cleanser

day is a daydream away from death
dustbowl of dirty circumstance

7.10.01
in an eclipse of emotion

7.3.01
boggling mind-filter
breath thought word

6.29.01
start seeing insanity

6.26.01
decisions design future
universe in pixel-perfect
pencil emissions make payment

6.25.01
hotsweat wetsex

6.24.01
slinking through emotional grasses
starting brushfires with my eyes
forked tongue tasting the burned air

6.22.01
piece of action pie

6.19.01
lets say geranium

6.18.01
wandering wanda wears white to weddings

6.15.01
play-doh dreaming
idol ideas
insipid inspiration
“cold lampin’”

6.14.01
believing is seeing

6.13.01
falling under
fruitloopy fantabulous

6.12.01
polkadot placebo

falling in lavender

6.11.01
standard studio funk-track

6.8.01
sweet and flower
spring weaning

6.7.01
eating flowers
good nightshade

a petal splash
drops the size of daisys

6.6.01
owning and owing
sewing slow slowing

6.5.01
wax-reach teeth
some infestation infatuation
feeling fermented
foulwood floundering
hoofing to the oldies
half-full flipflop faq

6.4.01
wood wanderingwood in a waste

5.29.01
sneezing sneakers

5.27.01
only diggin’ like a hoer in may
penis genus

5.26.01
slipping into first person

5.23.01
hate-filled memories are mesmerizing

5.17.01
slithering slutlather

5.16.01
weightless heavy
ribcage in ribbons
ravishing rewinding

5.15.01
blistered bravery

5.14.01
lonly as a fox

5.10.01
flickers of expectation

5.7.01
weaving fear from lonliness

5.4.01
elegant elephants
biblical umbilical

5.3.01
leaps and boundaries

5.1.01
compulsionary wingward worship

4.30.01
excess exceptionality exceptions

4.24.01
saturating the impersonated with personality.

4.22.01
a dawn as cold as winter sweat itself

4.18.01
we’re sunken in like the ships at sea

4.16.01
gray-gle, the sky is sunken ship silver
we’re turning over

4.13.01
kicking for hurt

4.11.01
what is it to doubt?

4.10.01
angry mob miscarriage

4.9.1
insert eye-dimensional

4.7.1
welding a disguise to whatever

4.4.1
wading in wasted sludge

an emotional drudgery, cludge-factory
sleet of frozen emotion, erosion
of mind and solem enclosion

4.3.1
Questions are places to meet.
Ask not, answer.
Wonders are for ceasing.

04.02.01
a glory of shadow
find the beat in reverse

04.01.01
it’s still the day of the fool.

03.30.01
visiting gift-horses at the mouth store

03.29.01
dread the blight trance-tastic

03.26.01
open fumbling
arms outstretched
closed

03.25.01
stifling silly laughter
with tangled shreds of pain

03.24.01
bill paying frenzi of poverty

03.23.01
we’ll wheel well when wheels whip wheelies
what!? when wheelies will wander
no wonder wheelies wander when wheelies wheel well
what wheelie would want wandering?

03.22.01
gopher gestations

03.21.01
disintegrate, our eyes decieve

03.20.01
giant non-toxicness

03.19.01
blank stare blasphemy—eyes eat euphoria

03.18.01
sounding board blastoff

03.16.01
finding sunshine in atmosphere

03.15.01
request frenzi, question, querry.

03.14.01
wax tadpole vortex
sweet sundial shadow
giggletronic ampugrin

03.12.01
dot-matriarch, printrix

03.10.01
alpha sex channel 1

03.09.01
grain eyes, low level pixel schizm

03.08.01
we’re serpents in our electric seas

03.07.01
mechanical lingo like lies industrial

03.05.01
sounds of trains and creaky ceilings

03.04.01
funks absolute absolution of abyss

03.03.01
punk aesthetic rivals work ethic

3.2.1
ambiguity fUcK—in love with a lie

we’re stuck in our own ruts of insatiable existence
lapping at pies of desirable feces
admiring the feces of other feces eaters
and stomaching the whole thing with churning brown titillations

2.28.01
rage gifts—intensifying the stupid

2.27.01
farming the emotional eclipse

2.26.01
abusive trust issues

2.24.01
instant oblivion. pages of sex erased. breakup narrowly averted.

2.21.01
ant oblivion projected

2.20.01
secret arbors of affection

2.19.01
we harbor thoughts of harbor’s thoughts

2.18.01
forgot my day, better sleep till I remember

2.17.01
dragon’s dribble, dabble in occult offerings

2.16.01
we’ll party like we’re inside it

2.15.01
consciousness sucks

2.11.01
why wait when you can whine?

2.10.01
thirsting for a funk fusion

2.9.01
we’re all rats from a sinking ship

2.5.01
waiting in abyss
awake while you sleep
I used to think it bliss
watching while you breathe
now I wonder if
(when you wake)
you will still love me

2.4.01
anthems of catastrophe

2.3.01
a silly salvation, singing for sundown

1.31.01
a bright yellow giraffe day

1.30.01
we’ll see sawdust lust in tim-buck-town

1.28.01
what shit wilts where shit will

1.26.01
shattered insights incite

1.25.01
glazed remnants offending morselinflations

1.24.01
I am obsessed with inflationary tactics of novel retailers

1.22.01
a divine crisis-aversion illusion

1.20.01
we stop at the foot of a mountain
but only see land disappearing into cloud
there are infinite sky-scapes
our imaginations fill in the peak
we see what we want
even if it’s invisible to us

1.17.01
going rollercoaster slow
only as far as cupid’s stone-throw
skat like a mindslate
on the evolution superhighway
prefix and suffix slaying super-sparrow slow
es brain-cargo
as word-becoming is word-bludgeoning
heavy on ego blundering
blubbering and blubber-baying
with introspect…I’m poem straining
when that’s all the poem’s saying
it’s as good as playing—good but not paying
bump
no-seatbelt-slump
head in dashboard bloodlump

1.8.01
light like poodles

1.4.01
pink worm wranglers

1.2.01
waiting in odd light—meager screen sun