Once upon a time I kept a journal of brief mindblurbs. Random brain noise bits I tried to wipe out onto the keyboard at least once a day. Usually they were one sentence long, but if I felt particularly feisty, I’d blort out as much as I could muster.
This is a page of old mindblurbs, and no longer gets updated.
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12.28.01
fuckstick motherfuck assfuck fuckbrain fucknut
fuckcrusade
a tyrany of fuck
ava-fucking-lanche
fuck-a-licious
12.27.01
going inside circles
12.26.01
opening sores with used staples
eating emotional appetizers by the mouthful
12.24.01
white cheer, gold reflected shmmering snowmirror
12.21.01
shimmering insanity—instant-breakfast-brain
12.18.01
infatuous simplicity itself
cookie smothering
12.14.01
suprise inspirations
12.13.01
steamy squares of sublimity
12.12.01
numerology cartography
12.09.01
bloody rot and smothered spots
12.5.01
dream journal dread
leading a fish to water
12.4.01
bloody boobie traps, and blister fixtures
eyeball blisters
bloodtear freezer-sheer
12.3.01
baby feelers
11.29.01
quit split flit slip
outsourcing the processing
11.27.01
slithering off your slime chair
11.26.01
fear a friendly feeling
11.20.01
surrounded by hype
techno-insatiable
monitorlust—life in screenes
11.14.01
swishing tailfeathers in Tulsa
11.13.01
walking skylark on dream-cushions
11.12.01
strike stifling
satisfy your inner burrito
11.8.01
saywhen evening grows
nightslide—seeming helpless
11.6.01
withered and wilted wastings of day
dream surface
11.5.01
quilt witling
10.30.01
scratch and snub
numb cyst-scratching giving mutated fingers wry wringing
10.28.01
building bridges out of belts and sandlewood
10.26.01
slackrope running
10.24.01
days of your sold out momma, giving gripe to gruff… buying cars… living deserted…
10.23.01
going dot picking, dot mixing,
fields of fresh dots and insane lines
googoo gaga over infultrated line-drawings
10.18.01
blueberry blort pie
big on bubblegum bitching
10.17.01
fucked by the seat of your pants
pulling rank in fucksville
10.16.01
revisit requisitions of invent
10.14.01
oggling oodles and noodles
eating frog slog viddles
10.13.01
fringe felatio in fatalistic spurts
10.12.01
fire trails and frequent thrills
10.10.01
a day in damsel strings and tassels
10.5.01
sugar-coated ice-capped molars
10.3.01
plumes of opressing orchard apple eyeballs
10.1.01
symetry in numbers
anexiety in numbers
murder in numbers
dentistry in numbers?
numbers in destiny
destiny’s numbers
numbers destined for greatness
great numbers of fire
numb-ers
9.28.01
shaving pussies at the playground
pre-pink pitfalls
going pinkdiving
pleading the pink
9.26.01
caged and gnawing at my brain
9.25.01
gear grindingly gorgeous
got my sumps in a pump
9.22.01
rain falls on inncents
9.12.01
apocalypse cow
9.10.01
swimming in the sweetspot
9.7.01
hummingbird strumpet
razor-nipple making shirt-stands
square glasses and white-girl afro
9.6.01
salamander slime smile
9.5.01
fishing for word weeds
murky sentence sludge
growing alliteration algae
9.4.01
a day as exciting as entropy
8.31.01
astroturf padded asylumn
outside is warm like melted snickers
8.30.01
thrill-seeking swapmeet style craziness
alice-colored looking glass
8.29.01
words of hurt, owe opera appologies
8.28.01
miles of skyhigh thimble collections..
8.23.01
headscrew seeing-eye-sloth
8.22.01
blazing at sunset
on an eventless horizon
our star stutters light through atmosphere
creating pleasant hues
and a dreamscape for lovers
entwined on a hill or rooftop
watching like vultures who watch a dying animal
hungry for the night to come…
8.21.01
delinquent daydreams
8.20.01
insect sized holes in the universe
8.16.01
somtimesweary is another word for alive and alive is another way of saying insane.
life is too intense for most people
8.15.01
taste-driven test-drive
8.14.01
serpentine insinuations
snake like salivations
8.13.01
gooseberry pie-flesh
yum
8.10.01
frighteningly fammilliar
8.9.01
decisions are made by giant elected egos
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I’m groovy on a gospel of anal-juice,
smothered in a numbing intensity.
My thoughts are of the universe of sex,
a rolling wound, a giant wheel,
a gyroscope of universal proportions,
and I’m perched on it, sitting,
one knee underneath me,
shoe up on the couch,
sitting and spinning,
the world is my sphincter, I shall not want.
Sun shines on my musk
a spiritual journey through the bowels,
riding upriver on a sometimes narrow
ship of fools.
Penetration, the face of aphrodisiac attack,
split pea splinter-skin,
a wooden wand of splinterless lust.
Who offers you what?
I’m thinking about it, sure.
8.8.01
state of absolute, in a universe without constants
8.6.01
treesap sticky afternoon haze
sky as dense as avacado
honey maple sweat
8.3.01
home is where the art is.
8.1.01
sliding doorway dreaming
7.31.01
dip-drain
straining the universe through a black hole collander
7.30.01
instant swindle
7.23.01
hot on silver—stars eyeball other stars
like mercury melting over another metal
7.20.01
blacklist bubble-beer binary
blundering through blueberry forests
7.18.01
waiting for imposible moments
7.17.01
import export instant extort
swing slide on slippery slope
salvation in an instant
7.13.01
hacksaw killer
combat ready toiletbowl cleanser
day is a daydream away from death
dustbowl of dirty circumstance
7.10.01
in an eclipse of emotion
7.3.01
boggling mind-filter
breath thought word
6.29.01
start seeing insanity
6.26.01
decisions design future
universe in pixel-perfect
pencil emissions make payment
6.25.01
hotsweat wetsex
6.24.01
slinking through emotional grasses
starting brushfires with my eyes
forked tongue tasting the burned air
6.22.01
piece of action pie
6.19.01
lets say geranium
6.18.01
wandering wanda wears white to weddings
6.15.01
play-doh dreaming
idol ideas
insipid inspiration
“cold lampin’”
6.14.01
believing is seeing
6.13.01
falling under
fruitloopy fantabulous
6.12.01
polkadot placebo
falling in lavender
6.11.01
standard studio funk-track
6.8.01
sweet and flower
spring weaning
6.7.01
eating flowers
good nightshade
a petal splash
drops the size of daisys
6.6.01
owning and owing
sewing slow slowing
6.5.01
wax-reach teeth
some infestation infatuation
feeling fermented
foulwood floundering
hoofing to the oldies
half-full flipflop faq
6.4.01
wood wanderingwood in a waste
5.29.01
sneezing sneakers
5.27.01
only diggin’ like a hoer in may
penis genus
5.26.01
slipping into first person
5.23.01
hate-filled memories are mesmerizing
5.17.01
slithering slutlather
5.16.01
weightless heavy
ribcage in ribbons
ravishing rewinding
5.15.01
blistered bravery
5.14.01
lonly as a fox
5.10.01
flickers of expectation
5.7.01
weaving fear from lonliness
5.4.01
elegant elephants
biblical umbilical
5.3.01
leaps and boundaries
5.1.01
compulsionary wingward worship
4.30.01
excess exceptionality exceptions
4.24.01
saturating the impersonated with personality.
4.22.01
a dawn as cold as winter sweat itself
4.18.01
we’re sunken in like the ships at sea
4.16.01
gray-gle, the sky is sunken ship silver
we’re turning over
4.13.01
kicking for hurt
4.11.01
what is it to doubt?
4.10.01
angry mob miscarriage
4.9.1
insert eye-dimensional
4.7.1
welding a disguise to whatever
4.4.1
wading in wasted sludge
an emotional drudgery, cludge-factory
sleet of frozen emotion, erosion
of mind and solem enclosion
4.3.1
Questions are places to meet.
Ask not, answer.
Wonders are for ceasing.
04.02.01
a glory of shadow
find the beat in reverse
04.01.01
it’s still the day of the fool.
03.30.01
visiting gift-horses at the mouth store
03.29.01
dread the blight trance-tastic
03.26.01
open fumbling
arms outstretched
closed
03.25.01
stifling silly laughter
with tangled shreds of pain
03.24.01
bill paying frenzi of poverty
03.23.01
we’ll wheel well when wheels whip wheelies
what!? when wheelies will wander
no wonder wheelies wander when wheelies wheel well
what wheelie would want wandering?
03.22.01
gopher gestations
03.21.01
disintegrate, our eyes decieve
03.20.01
giant non-toxicness
03.19.01
blank stare blasphemy—eyes eat euphoria
03.18.01
sounding board blastoff
03.16.01
finding sunshine in atmosphere
03.15.01
request frenzi, question, querry.
03.14.01
wax tadpole vortex
sweet sundial shadow
giggletronic ampugrin
03.12.01
dot-matriarch, printrix
03.10.01
alpha sex channel 1
03.09.01
grain eyes, low level pixel schizm
03.08.01
we’re serpents in our electric seas
03.07.01
mechanical lingo like lies industrial
03.05.01
sounds of trains and creaky ceilings
03.04.01
funks absolute absolution of abyss
03.03.01
punk aesthetic rivals work ethic
3.2.1
ambiguity fUcK—in love with a lie
we’re stuck in our own ruts of insatiable existence
lapping at pies of desirable feces
admiring the feces of other feces eaters
and stomaching the whole thing with churning brown titillations
2.28.01
rage gifts—intensifying the stupid
2.27.01
farming the emotional eclipse
2.26.01
abusive trust issues
2.24.01
instant oblivion. pages of sex erased. breakup narrowly averted.
2.21.01
ant oblivion projected
2.20.01
secret arbors of affection
2.19.01
we harbor thoughts of harbor’s thoughts
2.18.01
forgot my day, better sleep till I remember
2.17.01
dragon’s dribble, dabble in occult offerings
2.16.01
we’ll party like we’re inside it
2.15.01
consciousness sucks
2.11.01
why wait when you can whine?
2.10.01
thirsting for a funk fusion
2.9.01
we’re all rats from a sinking ship
2.5.01
waiting in abyss
awake while you sleep
I used to think it bliss
watching while you breathe
now I wonder if
(when you wake)
you will still love me
2.4.01
anthems of catastrophe
2.3.01
a silly salvation, singing for sundown
1.31.01
a bright yellow giraffe day
1.30.01
we’ll see sawdust lust in tim-buck-town
1.28.01
what shit wilts where shit will
1.26.01
shattered insights incite
1.25.01
glazed remnants offending morselinflations
1.24.01
I am obsessed with inflationary tactics of novel retailers
1.22.01
a divine crisis-aversion illusion
1.20.01
we stop at the foot of a mountain
but only see land disappearing into cloud
there are infinite sky-scapes
our imaginations fill in the peak
we see what we want
even if it’s invisible to us
1.17.01
going rollercoaster slow
only as far as cupid’s stone-throw
skat like a mindslate
on the evolution superhighway
prefix and suffix slaying super-sparrow slow
es brain-cargo
as word-becoming is word-bludgeoning
heavy on ego blundering
blubbering and blubber-baying
with introspect…I’m poem straining
when that’s all the poem’s saying
it’s as good as playing—good but not paying
bump
no-seatbelt-slump
head in dashboard bloodlump
1.8.01
light like poodles
1.4.01
pink worm wranglers
1.2.01
waiting in odd light—meager screen sun