Dan came over last week
and admitted he couldn’t remember
the simple mathematical procedure of division.
While Nate ridiculed him,
I realized that some specifics
were fuzzy in my mind too.
Fuzzy like last night,
when you wanted me to clean
and I just wanted to relax.
This simple procedure —
picking things up and
putting them someplace else —
was a headache, a fuzzy hole
in my happiness.
And the whole night we were divided.
You slept without touching me.
I woke to your absence.
“What?” you said.
I left for work.
It’s the part about remainders I don’t remember.
When you’ve got the numbers stacking downward,
I know there’s some subtraction involved…
And what is a remainder anyway?
Just some arbitrary number left over,
left out of the real answer.
And in the car, I imagined all the things I left out,
unsaid apologies and explanations.
Now I figure,
as long as the numbers come out even
we’ll be fine.
beautiful!
this is much more narrative than your other stuff. it’s great to see you stretch like that. and i really like the poem. really a lot.