memory lack

Why is it that back when I was compiling lists of my favorite science fiction films I didn’t stumble onto the epinions.com lists!?!? There are dozens of top ten lists on there!

For the last few weeks, on and off, I have been trying to think of the name of this movie that I want to see… it’s probably not even out on DVD yet… it’s a science fiction film that only made it to the “arthouse” theaters… I think it had a number in the title… and I remember really having wanted to see it. I hate my memory.

My novel is not really coming along right now. I’m totally behind, and would have to write something like 2000 words to be caught up. (which is, I’ll admit doable. I hope I can do it.) I wanted to be AHEAD this year, damnit.

I would be lying if I said that no part of my motivation for writing this bastard is my bad memory. My brain is shit, and everyone who knows me knows that I struggle with it. I have days where I can’t even string together a whole complete sentence without forgetting some words, or struggling to find some that fit. So it’s all just wishful thinking, this “headware” I’m writing about.

I’m at the coffee shop again. I am normally more productive when I come here, but today I’ve written very little. I feel like I’m a lump of unproductive shit on the log of laziness.

Is it bad that I really just want to play video games right now? If you have any ideas about the name of that movie, leave it in the comments, please. (or if you happened to know of a list of science fiction movies that came out in the last couple of years… that might work too.)