They have their tricks and I have mine.

I can make myself float
by staring into light bulbs,
so they use fluorescents.

When I breathe the open air
I too am open, and my mind
floats into cloud-scapes–
so they don’t use windows you can open,
and the air is forced to us,
cold, through pipes and vents.

But secretly I drink a glass of water
and even though it could taste better,
it is cool and wet in my throat
and I am on an ocean
floating on my back in a wooden raft.

I can smell the seagulls who land at my feet
and my hair is floating in a pool around me.
The boat lurches softly as the keel
scrapes onto a sandy beach.

Hindenbursting v0.1b

Here’s something I just wrote that I’m calling Hindenbursting:

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Hindenbursting

We are zeppelin.
Exploding clouds painted helium
red and yellow spark-colors at sunset.
I’m hanging from parachute clouds
by handrails of hail
and slippery rope-like raindrops.

I’ve taken a bottle of the explosion with me
to the park by our apartment, cloudbursting.
Grass is tickling the back of my neck. Dirty imperfect patches of grass
evolving slowly to mud, and for the moment
insects are too stunned or wet to move. I try not to squint
at the wet aerial assault and enjoy the perspective
of each individual shooting star of water, ultimately failing.

Tails of each drop point to the earth, simultaneously
pointing at me; making me the center of the universe.
Each spatter on my cheek is suggesting something–
a universal equation of which I am an integral part
or perhaps a span of time the length of my life
which could not exist were I not present to experience it.

We are too small or I am too big.
Dirty oily cloth and metal bones are screaming,
falling.
The air is hot despite the rain.
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I think it’s interesting that there is really no emotional turmoil whatsoever in my life right now, and yet, the moment I sit down to write a poem, I fictionally create some.

Did you know the pledge

Did you know the pledge of allegiance didn’t use to contain the phrase “under god” in it? Recently, the U.S. 9th Circuit Court of Appeals ruled this phrase unconstitutional.

A man in Sacramento named Mike Newdow is responsible for this ruling, and is also suing the USA for several other things related to separation of church and state.

All I’ve got to say about this stuff: It’s about fucking time.

Another of this guy’s suits has to do with prayers at the Presidential Inauguration ceremony.

Searching for this guy brought up the site http://www.au.org/, or Americans United for the Separation of Church and State. That’s where I found out about the court ruling. I’ve got a lot more reading to do…

What’s it mean when you

What’s it mean when you wake up nauseous in the morning? I’m not pregnant, so that’s not it. I think I’m not getting enough sleep. I guess that’s probably because saturday night was spent playing warcraft3 until the light was seeping in the windows.

Uplate: Last night I just couldn’t sleep (big suprise there, I didn’t wake up till 2:00pm on sunday), so I spent it reading the new wired, cover to cover. They’ve changed some things around in there, and I’m not convinced yet that it’s for the best.

I have the capacity to

I have the capacity to do nothing but whine and complain. Where did this come from? Laura said the other day she think she’s rubbing off on me, and that’s what it is. Earlier this week I just thought I was depressed… I have another theory: MY JOB IS SUCKING MY WILL TO LIVE.

But then again, maybe I’m just being a drama queen.

Update: On a related note, along with this general life-dissatisfaction, I have also lost all interest in science, arts, and politics. In general, anything not directly and immediately effecting my being. For instance, when I get a new magazine in the mail, I try and spend at least an hour pouring over it, when I get the chance. This week, I have a new wired in my backpack, and it’s sat there, unread, for several days now.

Update to my update: I never had any interest in politics. To have suggested I did was a lie.

boy, my archives were all

boy, my archives were all f’d up when I looked today… I’d just like to take this moment to complain some more about blogger.

In other news, I’ve got this mum song stuck in my head, so I’m ordering the album from ebay. (Thanks a lot victory shag.) I also found out they’re going to be here next wed, so I’m going to try and catch that.

Now I’ve got a parade to get to.

On monday I got a

On monday I got a call at work from a stranger. Stranger still, that person was from Drive 105, and they gave me a pair of tickets to see Moby tonight at the Roy Wilkins in St. Paul. Needless to say, that’s where I’m headed.

Today, the entire city is

Today, the entire city is a black-lagoon. I am merely one scaly creature, slithering my way down Interstate 394. The sky is some kind of oppressive black curtain that doesn’t quite touch the white fuzzy line of the horizon.

But somehow this has only served to brighten my spirits. Either that, or the pendulum of my manic-depression has swooshed onto the manic end of the spectrum–and I’m just at the mercy of various self-created brain-altering chemicals tinting this ugly day a brighter shade of pleasant…

Either way, it’s a good day, but still too early.