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This is one of those days where I feel like I’m walking around with blinders on. I can only see the thing immediately in front of me. I’ve never been good at multitasking, but today it’s even worse. I get sidetracked by thinking about chocolate. I get to a logical stopping point in a project, and I stop, but not for any reason, just because I’m there. It takes me a few seconds to realize, yes, I have more work to do.

My brain is frazzled and stupid. This is not that unusual.

I have huge news. Last night I went to look at a house right off of LynLake. It was awesome, and we made a bid on it. I went to my mom’s place, to juggle with Travis & AJ, and then went home to watch The Others with Nate. By the time I got home, Nate had already heard our bid was accepted! The house looks a little something like this:

I have so much work to do it’s comming out my ears. So I’m getting back to that. blah!

I’m having “issues” with blogspot again. Page not found errors… And bitstream is falling apart at the seams… I have my email one minute, and the next it’s all fucked up. Fortunately, they’ve got some really talented people down there, and I’m sure they’re doing the best they can…

Today at work was this all-gage company meeting… we played “games” which were mostly trivia about the various parts of the company. It’s actually a pretty amazing thing, when you think about Gage marketing as a whole–merely in terms of the volume and sheer diversity of work that comes through this building. Unfortunately, working in one of these cubes, on my stupid little projects, doesn’t leave me feeling part of anything big or important. The opposite is more frequently the case, (if it wasn’t already obvious.) I usually feel so separate from this whole thing. I want to get out. Run. Become a hermit.

I am not a drone. I am not a drone. I am not a drone.

*sigh*

I’ve caught the ebay bug. It’s funny how I’ve used ebay in the past without getting addicted. I think I was always looking for something in particular, but that’s how this started too… it was just something in particular that I didn’t (strictly speaking) need, so maybe that’s the difference. Video games are plentiful in the land of online auctions, and I’ve found a few pretty good deals. My SNES/N64 game-organizer should be arriving in the mail any day now. I’m pretty excited about that one. And I bought Kirby 64 because Laura likes playing Kirby when we play Super Smash Bros.. But last night I found myself staring at the screen long after I’d already checked my current auctions, surfing for everything, anything, something–things I don’t even really want… but have maybe thought about buying in the past. I think maybe it’s got to stop… maybe.

the audition on sat. went well. We all kinda tightened up and didn’t talk nearly as much as we should have. That’s the kind of thing only practice well alleviate, I think.

Work sucks, as usual. I’m debating the merits of working a night security shift somewhere. If I can make $15/hr, I’ll be excited about the prospect. I just don’t want to actually do anything. I’ll bring a laptop and books.

The house purchasing has to happen first, since financing depends on my job. We’ll see if I can hold out for a couple of months. We looked at about 8 houses this weekend, and weren’t really excited about any of them. Slim pickings right now, I guess.

well, I’ve been ignoring this here blog for almost a week now. Chaos has ensued in nearly all aspects of my life. Work is… well, work. There has been quite a bit of blame-slinging lately, and I feel like I’m in preschool here.

The big news is that I’m trying to put together an “act” for the renaissance festival this summer. My brother and sister will be in it, along with good friends AJ and Travis, who I have known for awhile in a juggling context.

We’ve been getting together almost every day this week, despite (or maybe partly fostered by) the fact that I’ve been calling in sick, and sleeping till noonish every day. I really have been sick, although if I’d have known how sick–and how much work I’d miss–I probably wouldn’t have taken monday off.

Not that I’ve missed working… I wish I lived in another country, where I could work 30 hours/week. I wish that were more socially acceptable here. If I could get away with it, I’d do it at the job I’m at now. I wonder if they’d let me… they’d probably make me hourly or something.

blogs are truly fascinating.

I was at first disappointed to find out that Keep Trying (a blog I’ve been meaning to, but haven’t visited in awhile) was no longer posting meta-comments about blogging. Then I read a bit of it, and–DAMN–it’s all about the situation in Jerusalem and world politics. It’s hard for me to remember that there are really horrifying things happening in the world around us. The worst part of my day is the agony of realizing my productivity level is at an all time low. I can’t work, I can’t seem to think. My brain is a puddle of disorganized thoughts melting into one another–sometimes something relevant will surface, but it’s completely by accident.

And then this slap in the face. We’re not all born with the freedom to post about our shitty jobs on the Internet.

today is 5-8. that is ostensibly my height. the universe throws coincidences like quarks.

OK, so I was listening to Yami’s playlist from home yesterday, and fell in love with this song, “adding up numbers”, which is (I found out this morning) by Kompressor, this weird muppets-meets-industrial band.

So… at the bottom of their homepage, there’s a link to this article they were mentioned in from Spin magazine… I highly recommend reading it, it’s got a bunch of links, and is pretty awesome.

From there… I got to http://songfight.com/, which is this weird songwriting competition site. Some really good stuff on there. If I were a songwriter, I can’t imagine a better way to hone my skills. So now I’ve been listening to old songfight songs. Good stuff.

I wanna know who thought of http://songfight.com/. It’s such an awesome idea.

I broke down over the weekend, and bought a gamecube. Dropped $400 I don’t have on three (additional) controllers, a (required but not included) memory card, three games, and the system itself.

Super Smash Bros is AWESOME.

now I’m working at home because the network is screwed up at work, and DAMN if I don’t just want to be playing it.