juggling convention and laptop woes…

This weekend is a juggling convention in a chicago suburb. It’s one I’ve never been to at least that I can remember,) and I’m warming up to the idea. I don’t get as excited about juggling as I used to, but a good festival is always good, and this’ll give me an excuse to introduce Laura to some of my relatives (the cool ones who live in Chicago).

It occurs to me that I’ve put off that rant about juggling for awhile now. I really have no excuse. I would write it now, but I’m at work, and therefor too distracted.

My laptop is booting to a blue screen. It’s almost like the mac-equivalent to the blue screen of death, but there’s not frustratingly incomprehensible error message. The hard drive just spins… and there’s no message at all.

I only mention the laptop because I was in the mood to write last night. I reached for the laptop (how I usually write…) but remembered the issue. Incidentally, the problem started when I made the recent upgrade to 10.2.5. I’ve done it successfully on at least two other machines, so I know that’s not the whole story, but it pisses me off, damnit. I may have to take the thing to the apple store tonight, but I have a couple of other things I want to try first. (I hate computer troubleshooting.)

danse macabre

I must now hype the new Faint remixes CD. If you like dance music and ear-throbbing-toe-tapping-electro, you’ll love this album. I do!

Ok so…

moving into random territory, I received nine complete sets of juggling scarves from a co-worker. Apparently they’d just been taking up space in a closet or something, and he figured I’d find some use for them.

also sent in my registration for convergence today. I was surfing their website and got all excited.

I *heart* sci-fi.

bookend sesquipedalian entry… ha!

morning ripened like slightly smelly fruit
fuzzy on the underside and your fingers sink into it
but my fingers aren’t sinking into this morning

a dance song stuck in my head, with it
images of strobe lights and multicolored disco-ball trails
dancing girls and DJs with blurry fingers

===

I got into the EVE beta test. I’ve been playing it the last two nights… It seems to suffer from the same sort of hurry-up-and-wait mentality that all the other MMORPGs I’ve ever seen have suffered from. A lot of moving around doing nothing. I was talking about the whole mining setup (one of the basic tasks a newbie can perform) yesterday with a co-worker, and he compared it to starcraft… in starcraft, you perform essentially the same sort of mineral collection, but you do it by clicking on a peon, and right clicking on a place to mine… it takes about 2 seconds, and you keep getting minerals until your mine runs out. In EVE, you are the peon. And it takes ten to twenty minutes to go get a patch of minerals, which you then have to “refine” before you can sell. (actually, that’s not true, you can sell it before hand, but you make more $ if you refine it.)

I haven’t decided if doing the other more “mission type” objectives is any more exciting. Plus, last night before I logged off, one of my characters was basically just crashing the program every time I logged in with him. (The other one seemed to work fine.)

The song in my head/poem fragment is by the faint. Their new remix cd is awesome.

===

spurge on words, winded like ginsburg
tongue a flabby malapropism flirtation
obfuscation by sesquipedalian obscurity

we are it. the end of it. a new form.
we also begin. our arrows point up. (noses too?)
let go. join us in space.

meta-intellectual crap

Life is a flash in the pan. I live opportunity to opportunity. I am inherently physically and mentally gluttonous.

I find thoughts of flesh and skin titillate my brain, and I return to them between the other mundane required thoughts throughout the day. On my way to the bathroom I’ll entertain notions of co-workers naked, or weekend fantasies that loom closer-than-life. I’ll be in a daze. As I sit back down at my desk these thoughts fade into background — as they should — but creep into the corners of my activities, nagging me to pull them out and entertain them at the forefront of my conscious thoughts.

Good books are like this, waiting in the wings of the stage of my imagination, jumping uncooperatively into conversations when I least expect them. Ideas that seem at times intelligent, compelling me to make them real, to sacrifice other thoughts while they roam the corridors of my consciousness.

Today’s fuzzy instinct might be tomorrow’s eureka… but for the gluttony. The sloth in my imagination. The imagination that claws the walls this drudgery, this mental confinement–my boring day, my placating job, my lack of creative outlet…

This is to say: I just sit and think about shit. All day. Daydreaming. Thinking nothing, and everything. Mostly thinking just the thoughts that come easy, slipping to the surface like bubbles in soap.

This is pretty random.

Mopsa’s post about weddings made me want to tell all my wedding stories. I have two. Total. I’ll spare you most of them though. Yes, I’ve only ever been to two weddings in my life. The first one I was a groomsman, and the second was only just this last weekend. Have I mentioned on here yet that I caught Laura looking at rings online the other night? She actually called me over to look at some of the ones she liked. Everyone but her insists this is some kind of hint. Of course she denies it.

Yesterday in the car my mom asked me if I’d done anything with my website lately. I guess it is her homepage (which I found kinda sweet, till she said that was because she didn’t know how to change it). I put up a link to thorsday from there today. There was an awkward moment (probably only for me) when I wanted to tell her about this, but didn’t.

Last night I picked up a bunch of new CDs. The most exciting one, (at least at the moment) is the first release from the umbrella sequence. They’re quite reminiscent of the last couple of radiohead albums… which is a good thing in my opinion. I’ve listened to the album twice this afternoon, and it’s great so far. I wish I’d made it to their CD release party, which was the 15th of last month or something.

I also picked up a pretty decent album of The Faint remixes, and yo la tengo’s latest. I need to listen to both of those more before I can comment authoritatively.

sci-fi mmorpgs galore!

I’ve been looking through screenshots of eve: the second genesis, and damn does that game look (and sound like it’s going to be) cool.

I had been looking forward to Planetside, but for some reason it doesn’t look as cool as it did a year or so ago. They’re calling it the first MMOFPS now. I’ll have to at least try it out when it comes out, but I’m curious as to how different the game will be from non-subscription FPS games.

You can probably tell I’m chomping at the bit for a sci-fi MMORPG. I did try out Anarchy online when it came out last summer, but I had so many problems with the game I returned it in the first week. They had already collected my CC#, and kept charging it despite my repeated emails to their support people, and the assurance that my account was canceled. I eventually complained to my CC company, and got the # on my card changed as a result. I still don’t think the charges were ever reversed though. Bastards.

Anyway, by some strange coincidence, I had a conversation yesterday with one of the true Everquest addicts I know, and he’s recently quit! He’s sold all of his level 50+ characters, and swears off MMORPGs altogether. He says they’re just in the business of selling “timesinks”, every new expansion was just another way to waste your time. He’s probably right. I wonder if my cousin is still playing Asheron’s Call 2…

side note: mmorpg.com is actually pretty interesting, and does seem to have a fairly comprehensive list… It even included this weird and (I think) obscrure “A Tale In The Desert”, which doesn’t have any fighting, and apparently one of my co-workers has played before.

rdf, xml, faq…? FUQ!

how come the Movable Type manual doesn’t document their RSS support? I’ve been trying to find some explainations for awhile now, and maybe I’m just looking in the wrong places, I don’t know. Some support forums have been helpful, but not anywhere near the level of detail I’d like.

What I really want is it broken down for me… here’s what RSS is, and here’s how we do it. bah.

lunch agenda… something had to break the monotony

Don’t rock the boat, especially when you’re in it, but the squeaky wheel gets the grease.

With any luck, tonight Laura and I will pick up tickets for tomorrow’s opening of the 2003 International Film Festival. I’m quite excited about it.

Today at lunch I played my first couple of games of Go in about 10 years. I won my first game, and tied the second. I actually learned the game in Hard Times Cafe, playing against an elderly guy who came to the cafe just to play the game. I was in high school, and just there to hang out with friends, but I saw him two or three times, and he always tromped me, despite giving me a considerable handicap to start out with.

We also played another game called Tic-Tac-Chess, which was really fun. You have a pawn, rook, knight and bishop, who can all move just like in Chess, and you play on a 4X4 grid, placing pieces on the board until someone connects four. If your piece gets taken, you can put it back right away again the next move. It’s very simple, and was super fun. Of course, I probably only thought it was that fun because I won over and over again.

For lunch, I had a microwave Tofu Pad Thai. Out of a box even! It was actually quite good, and certainly not the worst pad thai I’ve ever had.

p-funk in da’ hause

I just got back from seeing George Clinton at First Ave. There were several moments I must now share. About 2 minutes after George Clinton took the stage (at least 20 minutes after Parliament took the stage), someone passed a fat-ass blunt up to the band. The amusing thing was not necessarily that this happened, but how the blunt was immediately taken to George for inspection, who looked at it a couple of times before visibly deciding “what the hell?” and taking quite the slew of consecutive puffs. His voice was then quite hoarse, and he actually coughed once or twice, saying, “I must be getting old.” This was at least an hour before the part of his set where he introduced his granddaughter to the audience, and she sang “Somethin’ Stank And I Want Some”.

I wanted to remember to write about the guy holding his cell phone up over the crowd (presumably so someone on the other end could enjoy the music,) both because it was pretty amusing and also because it really made me think about how often that must happen, and how five or ten years ago, it wouldn’t have even been possible. The bald guy who nodded at me and said “nice haircut” as I walked by was not nearly as amusing or thought provoking.

About the time I was really starting to “get into” the music… feeling it, if you will, the overwhelming smell of ganja permeated my tiny, tiny-ass personal bubble (the bubble shrinks when you’re surrounded by hundreds of other sweaty bodies packed onto a dance floor,) and nearly simultaneously, this gorgeous girl, with probably the biggest brown eyes I’ve ever seen (exaggerated, no doubt, by the gargantuan size of her pupils,) pressed her way through the crowd past me. It was one of those moments, and we locked eyes the entire eternity it took her to pass by me. We simultaneously said, “excuse me” and “sorry” (I think I actually said excuse me), and then the moment passed, and I was staring at the back of her head as she disappeared into the crowd.